Where do I even begin with this one? I kind of gave ya'll a quick snapshot about me in the "About Me" portion of this blog, but I guess let's dig in a bit deeper. I have ALWAYS been a quitter. I quit everything that got hard or boring. The only thing I can say that I completed was High School. Yay me. When Amelia was born I instantly knew that I could not quit. I knew that being a mom was something that you can't take a break from, you can't press the pause button on and you definitely can't quit. Amelia is making me a finisher, not a quitter.
On the topic of finisher. I am finishing my BS degree. Finally. After lots of starts, lots of different majors and even lots of different colleges... I've decided that I want Amelia to be able to say that her mom is a _________ (fill in the blank). I want Amelia to know that her mom has a degree and that she can get one to. I am finally committed to finishing. I am confident in that I absolutely can finish.
Speaking of confidence, No more body shaming! I cant say that I'm confident in my body but I am definitely going to fake it until I make it. I am nourishing my body with healthy whole foods and getting in small exercises when I can. I am NOT starving myself or killing myself at the gym. I want Amelia to be confident in her own skin and have a positive body image. She is going to be exposed to a lot of unrealistic expectations of what she "should" look like and I want her to have a positive role model.
I have become a bit of a neat freak. I never was this way. Now, whenever I see Amelia near clutter.... I get Anxiety! I know it sounds crazy, but It's like the nesting period never subsided. Thanks Amelia, your daddy loves this new found characteristic.
I don't sleep. Well, I do... but always with one ear open. I don't think this will ever change. I constantly find myself listening for Amelia. I used to be such a heavy sleeper. Literally, a tornado couldn't wake me. Fast forward to now; I hear absolutely everything.
Shopping for myself is no longer a thing. For Christmas, I normally get a nice big gift card to Nordstrom from my in-laws. I usually would make it last a couple months at Nordstrom Rack (like I said, It's normally a LARGE amount). Nope, not anymore. I take any and all shopping sprees and buy my daughter clothes and accessories. Oh motherhood.
Lastly, I can no longer watch any type of show on murder, kidnapping, rape or anything involving harm to children. I used to LOVE Law & Order, Criminal Minds and the like... now, I literally can't take it. I immediately think of that happening to Amelia and can't shake it. No more shows like that. Seriously.
How have ya'll changed after having kiddos?